Eternal love is fickle

I confess that I have murdered another day; and the shadow of our earth on our moon, confirms that it is as dead as all the others, that went before it. I now drive a stake through the heart of this night; bidding it to be still, but this restless time just keeps moving on. I know that time my closest companion; is a fickle friend, and will eventually desert me and continue his inexorable march towards eternity, to the space I cannot go. I breathe in this moment; and he is with me and we are one again, and all my efforts will not still this beating heart. No matter how much of it I kill, it just keeps coming back for more.
I seek solace in sleep; but he is restless and brings back dreams of his dead companion days, and I breathe the same smells, and experience the same delights, that I tried to capture and make my own. I reach out to grasp it all to myself; as this is my life I say, but he just slips through my fingers and I know I hold nothing, and will have nothing in the end also. You are faithless; I cry out in despair, and push back at him and he smiles and whispers, “have faith, for I am all that you will ever have.” I no longer want him near me; and like a jilted lover, I sulk and moan. He giggles and teases me; bringing back even more dear memories of this life, that I know is mine. I tell it to be gone; as all I want is that rosy future, where all I desire will be mine to enjoy, and not this past that reeks of decay and leaves a sour taste in my mouth of death. I thrash about in the hot night without solace from my beloved companion; and sleep comes to me at last, a poor bargain compared to what I seek. In the meantime our universe continues its expansion into another billion miles of space, and this time I love more than myself, continues his eternal dance of joy.

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About Rajiv Kapoor

Rajiv Kapoor was born in New Delhi. He was educated by the Jesuits at St Xavier’s, and graduated with Honors, from The University of Delhi. Rajiv Kapoor did his MBA in International Business from Penn State and is now settled in the US. He has traveled across most states of India, when he was working on modernization of Rice Mills, and understands their diverse culture and history. This book is a historical fiction, dedicated to his city of birth. His extensive research dives deep into a critical moment, in India’s long history, for his latest Historical Thriller “The Peacock Throne Wars”..

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